A Night To Remember

Holiday going to start soon ler..
and I get my terrible exam result,
a lot mistakes,
this holiday is the important key for whether I can score good result in stpm or not...
I have lost a lot attention in my study,
due to my family problem..
hope everything will be better tomorrow...
Just back from library,
the electric supply to school library always not functioning,
and I sweat alot today because me and my friends still continue to do homework
although there is no electric supply,we rely on the natural resourses that is sunlight..hahaha..

If you feel like want happy then don't read my blog post please..
The first blog post until today already have about 1 year and 8 months,
I can say that my blog can be funny,can be cute,can sometime write something interesting,
but there is one thing never changed,
that is my blog still full of sadness,
the small phrase at the bottom of each post...
this kind of feelings when I open my blog will never leave me,
Many people called me faker,actually I know that is true, I
because I never tell everyone the truth and genuine things,
I avoid the topic by saying other things,
I hide it in my heart,nobody know what am I thinking,
Sometime I do helpless too,I seems like come to d endCANof the road because I forced myself too hard..
I don't know what to do,what to account,and I choose express it to myself during night time,
I can't change my weakness ,think too much,i tried a lot efforts to change it by buying alot alot books whenever i go to bookstore,
but its still effortless..
I'm not a real man,now I only know I'm not tough in SMILE the real life,
I just become like a normal girl,
choose to express it in another ways when i encounter problem..
I intend to do something that prohibited me to do that things..
Why I just can't be that understanding?
Why I have to face this cruel and precious time aBECAUSE
tick tock tick tock~time passed 1,2 ,3,4,.......seconds just take everything from me,
no wonder so many people said that TIME IS CRUEL..
I have to face it again ...face everything tat is cruel..
when I will be awake from this dream???
Why I can't accept those cruel word??
why say regret???alot why....... ........OF YOU,MY FRIENDS