A Night To Remember

When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.

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It's almost 4 years since the first post for this blog !
I'm gonna make it alive for my CHINA Exchange project !!
Excited WooHooOOooO !..
Emo element is too much in this blog previously.
Stay positive ! =D
You're the reason that make me keep positive ! =D
Remember,
Appreciate people more than self depressed !

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Stop thinking someone are perfect enough for you
Nobody is perfect =)


我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望 我的心深深伤过却不会忘 我和他不再属于这个地方 最初的天堂 最终的荒唐

A scholarship interview

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Its 5.30 am !!
I have to take a train ride to kl,
it's been a long time I didn't wake up so early after
my high school.

Yawninggggg......
first time ride ETS ..
watch "cash and tango" ..
Also my first time watch stallone movie..haha


When I reach KL sentral,
its only 7.45 am,yet my interview session is on 10.30am,
take LRT to KLCC shopping mall had my breakfast .

take a shot when I'm still blur.


How blur am I?
I use GPS to search for maxis tower,
Indeed it just situated directly at the KLCC tower .. =.=''

After interview ,
met up with two "YIT",
yit weng and yit guan !..
they sacrifice their lecture to guide me in kl.
'they scare i'm lost in KL' wakaka.so embarrased ler me..

yit weng brought his favourite digimon pet devices!!
it's good to recall our childhood moment ..haha

see you holding the chopstick also no energy ..
It's time to keep your hand from whacking people la!.. LOL
=D

MEAT ~


Lunch at times square..
thailand BBQ ~

famous tong shui at pavillon,
I can't recall what the name of the shop.
Seems not nice right?
It can be proven that my photo taking skills is terribly bad !! haha..

And of course before I leave......

my favourite subway burger !! ..hehe ^^

That's the end of a day.

Simple and short trip.lol.
Thanks to two bestie oh !..
I get the scholarship as well.. thanks ya !
^.^

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Blog ?




BLOG ?!?



BLOG ?!!!???



BLOG ?!??.............


Seems like this word already abandoned by me long time ago in my mind..
Someone inspire me to write blog, keep my memories here but then I'm not that diligent enough..haha..
having all the inspiration and illustration about writing and d
ecorate my blog,
after a while lazy worm trying to eat me !! ...

2010 is a really tough time to pass,encounter a lot problems and boundaries,
luckily gt my best friend who always accompany me.
at last I could focus on my stpm exam,if not ,my exam may even worse !
I wouldn't stand a chance to attend prize receiving ceremony held at my former school today..
thank you !


starbuck after the ceremony !


muffins !..


Guess who's cappucino??


My Best friend xinyi (don't act cute ya ) ^^

I really didn't update my blog quite a long time,
my wishlist already become the past.
LOL

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No one know better about my condition right now..

I hope I could be the lucky one.
There will be a long way to realise my dream,
and there might even longer way back to my past when I was just a kid..

Imagine you are taking an examination that determine your future,
and suddenly numerous things happen just around you,
distract your attention,can't even have a single time to study,
not a small matter,it leave nightmare every night,
some more tomorrow would be the beginning of final exam that judge your one and a half year effort,
what's your feeling on that time??

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Just a simple post after i have abandon this blog long time ago....

Chinese New Year had come to the end,
and yesterday valentine day ,
just wanna say i enjoy it,but I just can't express every of my feelings,
because its complicated....

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No one can help me this time..

not in academic..aiks

Beach party

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My legs are cramp,and its really exhausted,
I plan to sleep until afternoon but then my daddy ask me wake up to eat breakfast..
because I today 4 am only go back home from work,
Well,yesterday i go to my working place at 2pm as they told us go earlier,
but then after i go there,I was so boring and look at those boss busy doing things,
and I just sit at the sofa,looking innocent at them,
Don't know why I'm just don't like myself doing nothing,not
comfortable with that,

Luckily miss chan bring me to jusco before i work,to buy
another green t shirt,
THANKS YA!!
if not i sure let me colleague laugh at me,
because my shirt that i wear previously was so childish,
hahaha..
I don't have any green shirt,even that
I plan to wear my daddy shirt,
luckily my sister told me,it looks ugly when i wear it !!

after that ah bear fetch me to lost world,
and again we have waited there for few hours until 6 pm,ima
gine that 4 hours we were doing nothing,is that boring??hahaha..
nicole ,ah bear, kar yan and I just loitering around lost world,
then around 6pm,all the bikini models havejust reached lost world,
we were astonished and a little excited,haha..
however i don't think all 50++ models are pretty at all,
because their make up make them looks mature enough like 30++ years old..
I heard some of the uncles talking yellow things about bikini models..
the worker is setting up for the main entrance..

At night,alot problem occur when i set up
my beer counter,
some of my counter carlsberg promoters were confused when our c
ounter surrounded by crowded..
fortunately I calm down and control the situation again..
I crash my head when i carry ice from the truck and its hurt !!
not sure whether my eye will swollen or not..my spectacle have to repair..
can you see the red packet?that packet contain 5 carlsberg and it cost rm65 !!
one carlsberg cost rm15,expensive right?
but mostly those who join beach party is rich..
bikini models at my counter there,i dare not to approach them..hahaha

when everything settle,
I start to loiter ,around 4000++ enter this beach party yesterday,
and it was hot and cool,girls wearing bikini and guy showing their muscular body..
dance crazily at the beach especially hitz.fm deejay can play the music..
If I didn't work,I think this is a cool beach party !!
work until almost 4am ,we only dismiss from work..earn money really hard..
sleepy ZzZzzz

Job

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Yesterday suddenly a message from miss ha,
there is an offer for working at lost world tambun for the beach party..
And the salary is rm100 ?!? work from 6pm until midnight 2am..
when I see the rm 100 work for only one day,
I admit I was a little bit of excited but I'm don't know whether I
'm qualify for the job,
since I'm not handsome,neither tall nor muscular body..
then i get to know that nicole also going,
hahaha,she also wondering whether she need to wear bikini to work,
because we don't even know what's that job is..
so i fetch nicole and her friend to the place for briefing,
and the senior brothers take us to lost world of tambun for letting u
s know what's our duty,
we didn't even eat dinner then stay there for few hours,
of course luckily i drive to there,
after finish discuss everything,we can straight leave lost world..hehe..
so those who are going to beach party held at lostworld,hope to see you guys at there,
I'm duty at beer counter,im not bartender of course..hahaha..

can you see there is water shoot out?
this is the newly built hotspring at lost world.
Its cool when rinsed your body into the hot spring during the cool night~

Another day passed

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Holiday going to start soon ler..
and I get my terrible exam result,
a lot mistakes,
this holiday is the important key for whether I can score good result in stpm or not...
I have lost a lot attention in my study,
due to my family problem..
hope everything will be better tomorrow...
Just back from library,
the electric supply to school library always not functioning,
and I sweat alot today because me and my friends still continue to do homework
although there is no electric supply,we rely on the natural resourses that is sunlight..hahaha..

If you feel like want happy then don't read my blog post please..
The first blog post until today already have about 1 year and 8 months,
I can say that my blog can be funny,can be cute,can sometime write something interesting,
but there is one thing never changed,
that is my blog still full of sadness,
the small phrase at the bottom of each post...
this kind of feelings when I open my blog will never leave me,
Many people called me faker,actually I know that is true, I
because I never tell everyone the truth and genuine things,
I avoid the topic by saying other things,
I hide it in my heart,nobody know what am I thinking,
Sometime I do helpless too,I seems like come to d endCANof the road because I forced myself too hard..
I don't know what to do,what to account,and I choose express it to myself during night time,
I can't change my weakness ,think too much,i tried a lot efforts to change it by buying alot alot books whenever i go to bookstore,
but its still effortless..
I'm not a real man,now I only know I'm not tough in SMILE the real life,
I just become like a normal girl,
choose to express it in another ways when i encounter problem..
I intend to do something that prohibited me to do that things..
Why I just can't be that understanding?
Why I have to face this cruel and precious time aBECAUSE
tick tock tick tock~time passed 1,2 ,3,4,.......seconds just take everything from me,
no wonder so many people said that TIME IS CRUEL..
I have to face it again ...face everything tat is cruel..
when I will be awake from this dream???
Why I can't accept those cruel word??
why say regret???alot why....... ........OF YOU,MY FRIENDS

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I think I will not online for these few months,
because my line gonna be cut soon,
Just finish stpm trial,its tougher than i expected especially chemistry paper,
I was shivering there when I have insufficient time to complete it,
and I blank the whole page,because I was too nervous until I can't think properly what's the chemical reaction..
that's the reason for why I had nightmare continuously for these few days,
so frightened during midnight,
two big eyes blinking and looking to the ceiling,
can't sleep..............................................................................................




I hope I can be understanding all the time,
I need it,I really need it!!!

=)

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Parents day today,
already 11 years my parents take exam report card at school,
as well as this upper six year too,haha..
Just receive MUET result slip,
the grade is band 4 ,so relieved as I don't need to resit the test again..
but the grade is lower band 4,prove that my english is really terrible..
I didn't blog since long time ago,
and I guess is because stpm exam is approaching ,
I feel lazy to update it,just depend on the mood..
I don't want the time for stpm examination become nearer and nearer to me,
not because I'm not prepare for it,is because I don't want separate with all my friends..
For sure we all will go to different places to pursue study again..
However,I have to accept the realistic,
everyone will have to separate one day....



Hope to be perfect,
but making the situation becoming worse..

horoscope?

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天秤座(Libra) 优雅的天平在灯红酒绿中微笑转身，顾盼神采，洒脱如同水中的鱼。他们与红酒，水晶杯，晚礼服，钢琴曲是那么的相得益彰，漫不经意的吸引着公众的眼光……
几乎所有人都有这样一种印象： 天平座的人善意、可亲，爱交朋友。于是大家也由此认为天平是群居生物，必然是害怕独处，喜欢热闹的。 但，事实并不是表面看来那样简单。 的确，天平是个和平使者。在公众场合可以很好地调节气氛使之均衡。气氛热烈时，他们会沉静的压住阵脚；气氛冷凝时，他们会运用不着痕迹的轻松幽默化解坚冰。总之他们不会随波逐流去助长气氛的冷热，而是像用天平称量物品一样，加减砝码，使之维持水平状态。 而他们在做这种加减的时候，动作是优雅的，态度是和悦的，看起来漫不经心不动声色。实际上，他们是很有心计的人，尽管众口难调，也可以找到一种万全的方式来使全局和谐起来。 但是这并不是说他们喜欢主宰，只是因为他们看不得失衡，那会使他们如坐针毡。 因此，尽管慵懒的天平座讨厌麻烦，讨厌得要命，他们还是会不由自主地担负起调节的责任。也许正因如此，使得天平在公众场合从未放松过自己。性格使他们承担了不必要的责任，无可推卸。 他们不吝惜金钱，却吝惜自由的时间和安静的休闲时光。像所有风向星座一样，他们喜欢自由，喜欢像风一样谁也捉不住他。 他们喜欢自在独立的空间。就算你是他最好的朋友，也不要老和他粘在一起，你要知道他并不喜欢如此，尽管他不会直接说出来。你也得相信，你的天平座朋友也许半年也没有音信，但是只要一见面，你还是他最好的朋友。因为他就是这种交友方式，你拿他怎么办？ '我懒得……' 这是天平座的口头语。他们懒得出门，懒得聚会，懒得应酬……所以他们并不是很喜欢参加party。倒是宁愿呆在家里上网，看书，画画。他们自身是均衡的，一个人的均衡总比一群人的均衡来的容易。所以他们喜欢独处。 通常，天平座的人会给人一见如故的感觉，因为他们有着温婉的微笑和优雅的举止。对初次见面的人，天平座往往表现出自己最讨人喜欢的一面：善解人意，大方，诚恳，健谈。但是这种热情劲儿不会长久。冷漠何时到来取决于你与他交往的频率。你越是粘得紧，他就冷得越快。因为他们喜欢'君子之交清淡如水'。不是他们不喜欢同伴，而是他们和人交往更多地关注了对方的情绪，总想着照顾对方心情，不要发生冲突，所以感觉像是在工作一样，无法真正的放松。 较之对宫白羊座，天平是另一种独立的个体。白羊是一种外在的独立，内心是热的；天平则是表面看似亲和力很强，内心却是任谁也无法融入的。天平的冷静，连他们自己也觉得惊讶。'我居然如此冷漠！太不可思议了……'他们审视自己的时候，感觉有点陌生。那是因为他们把内心世界掩饰得连自己都骗过了。 他们控制情绪的能力太强了。最亲近的人会感觉到，天平给人不露声色的隔离感，有时会被埋怨'太冷静了，我都不知道你在想什么！' 可是他们不是故意要隐瞒什么，只是出于本能。一个连自己都骗过了的人，你还能要求他对你坦白什么？ 他们不喜欢歇斯底里，不喜欢痛哭失声，不喜欢安慰别人也不怎么喜欢被安慰。因为他们懂得，谁也无法真正理解另一个人。 天平，其实是很独立的一个星座。他们在霓虹灯影里微笑，在灯火阑珊处寂寞。他们叫你懂得：孤独的最高境界是繁华。

haven read it yet..hahaha ^^

starving

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17/06/2010

Went to lostworld with usst-ian..
before we enter......
our hands !!
I think all the hands above right now sure become very dark,
especially me !!
there is a region on my hand there
that can obviously differentiate the dark and fair part..
but I guess,even if I become darker,also nobody
will realise it..Is it?
T_T
Me and Xuxu injured on that day..
but not a serious wound I guess,
so funny when i enter the first aid room,
nobody incharge there,
then the person who guide me there just so nervous when he saw my wound,
then i told him calm down,
I'm a first aider..lol...

Still left half year for the form six life,
thanks to USST for enlighten my life too !!

After lost world,we went to Kon Shong for dinner..
steamboat as we didn't plan before,
I ate until my tummy so big and round in shape,
everyone looking at my tummy,I feel SHY !!hahaha..
I take 20 mins to walk around,before I drive,
so that I can digest,its really very full,couldn't speak at all..
Lol,this holiday I eat nonstop,
everyone please called me FEI LOU !!
then i will automatically go keep fit..hahaha..

18/06/2010
the first day of my holiday to exercise,
I go jogging at pologround..
helping my friend who so big size to diet too !!wakakkaa..
feel comfortable as I sweat a lot !!
hope all the food that I eat could digest through sweat..haha..
then night go out watch football match with kee min and kok wan..
germany lose !!!
so many "cold door " match for this fifa held at south african..
like so fake..

good luck to my friends who graduate from matriculation,
and soon pursue their study at IPTA..
some are doctors,dentist,accountacy..
hope they strive hard for future as well as me..hehehe..

papapapa

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15-16/06/2010
Yesterday visit paparich,its such a nice place,
I never expect that the building is so stylish,
the environment and atmosphere is different with typical ipoh building style..hahaha
Well,taste different food at there,especially the tuitti fruitti frozen yogurt..
taste good !! but the price "aheemm aahemm"..
having "auntie" behaviour when I choose the topping,
scare it will over budget..hahaha..
then movie with sing K today...
its seems that this two weeks really make me enjoying this holiday,
my holiday mode just started but then schooling day no longer will begin..
I forget all my aims...
before i get back to my track,
let me enjoy one more day that is tomorrow i will go to LOST WORLD with USST-ian...
WeeeEeee..LOL

OMG !! Spain lost to Switzerland??
I think this is an unexpected game,
and I believe those people who bet sure lose a lot money..

Am I good to handle everything?
I admit I feel uncomfortable when I view it,
but I'm sure everything will be fine soon,
tan ter wei so strong,won't defeat so easily.LOL

First Time

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14/06/2010
It's my first time to wear contact lens today,
It was terrible I guess !!!

My sister took some contact lens sample back from her work,
since she's promoting for focus point contact lens,
therefore I'm quite curious about that,
wondering will I look different when i put on contact lens,
suddenly "Fatt Hao" er me..
godness!!
My sister demonstrate to me the way on how to wear contact lens for N times !!
but I still couldn't put it on,and let my sister scold that my eyes so small..
when I successfully wear it,I feel that wear spectacles is better,haha
so I quickly ask my sis teach me to take it off,
Its really horrible,
I have spend one and half hour to take it off !!!
the contact lens just like stick on my eyes ball,
when I use my finger press it hardly on the contact lens,
It still stick on my eyes,
feel like wanna cry on that time,lol,
because my whole left eyes become as RED as blood on that time..
keep on dripping out of water..
On that time,I suddenly remember ng yi lin told me that my sister's promoting contact lens product is good but its hard to take it off !!
My sister still told me,if I can't take it off,
I have to go Focus Point ask for their help,
I feel that "errmm,its seems so embarassed!!"
hahaha..
until the time I use all my energy to scratch the contact lens out,
I can feel that my eyes ball relieve,
and I quickly throw the broken contact lens,
not sure of how it break,but I just know I'm phobia of contact lens..
Am I useless??hahaha..

One Week More

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10-12/06/2010

Well,I back from the church camp,
and hugging my lovely pillow right now..
No doubt that I'm old,
not as energetic like previous time..
No more passionate to join camp..
Actually this church camp isn't like normal physical training camp that I joined,
however I truly felt tired,just a normal obstacle game could take off my spirit,
and surrender hope I can go home as soon as possible on the first day..
This camp is really differ with the camp that I joined..
I'm not christian,and i followed groupmates to pray,
and even I learn how to pray for others,and say "LORD" "AMEN".
I only could say that everyone there having a strong belief in GOD..
the speaker told us to pray whenever you face problem or need something,
and must be specific..
perhaps,I'm not christian,that's why I feel I'm abit strange and weird among them.
(doesn't mean to offend other religion ya !!)


Indeed the camp activities quite good and challenging,
that is night trekking and stream trotting,
I have been told to guide an aunty called aunty placida along the night hike and stream trotting..
My shoe is so slippery,always fall down
but then I still pretend infront of the aunty,that I'm strong and fine,ask her to be careful !!
wakakaka..make her think that I'm the right person to protect her..and my mission completed..
she appreciate me much!!( I guess lar)haha..
The things I'm not satisfied is my SHOE!!
other campers bought the disposable shoe earlier before the camp,
whereas me,xinyi and waihung don't even know it..
therefore we wear our sport shoe play games,climb hill,walk on the river..
the shoes are wet everytime finish the activities,
We don't have enough time to dry our shoe,then we need wear it for another programmes,
of course I admit that my shoe is SMELLY and DISGUSTING !!
yakkieeee~

Instead,I prefer the stream trotting !!
we have walk quite a long journey to reach the hill,
then we climb up,and walk on the river,
honestly its quite dangerous,especially for girls,
the stones are wet and easily to fall down whenever someone step on it..
and I have experienced it when I step on the stone full of algae,
Its worth that all the pain gained with our joy..

There is an incident makes me astonished and stunned at instant,
It happened just infront of my eyes..
I blame myself for not agile enough to hold it tightly..
and my feeling really indescribable..
I will not let it be my nightmare because I will make sure its still be with me all the time..

SUFES campsite


From the day I want to leave the camp until I enjoy this camp,
our life is to be like that,we might encounter problem initially,
but if we could spend the time to think what's the problem,
and solve it out,then everything will be fine,
Am I really understand this statement?

I'm trying.........

Pre camp

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Going camp tomorrow..
Have been a long time that I didn't join camp,
still remember last time I train myself until very fit before i join any camp,
but then now all my muscle "lam pek pek " jor..haha..
not sure what activities of the camp,
I think is church camp..

MId year test

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If I could correct my bad behaviour,is that good?
I really try my best,really really really really really !!!
but why the result still be like that???
and the worst is the time i receive my result,
not just only depressed that simple..
I'm not the one who want to be like that,
all the things that observe may different with the facts..
I just can't stop myself from behaving badly,
I'm just so helpless sometime alone in a single room..
I change to another person because of the test..
Anyone in this world is perfect??
without facing any problems in all aspects,
I would like meet him/her because I don't want to fail it and the things that I opt for..
Can the person come and help me??

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happy all the time when nothing happen..
But when thing's come,I'm just not like myself again,
scare to get involve in trouble..
Gotong Royong tomorrow...weee~~~

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